Reflections

Sorry I haven't been updating! I had every intention of doing so, but then I got the flu this week! It's been awful!! :(



This past week I've been just reflecting on this past year. I've know that I was coming to Reading for almost a year now! Crazy, isn't it? I remember sitting at lunch telling mom and dad I was leaving and dad going, "What are we going to do with your stuff?". :D Gotta love my daddy! I've been thinking a lot about my favorite song Is There Life Out There Reba McEntire. The lyrics are as follows:



She married when she was twenty

She thought she was ready

Now she's not so sure

She thought she'd done some living

But now shes just wonderin'

What she's living for

Now she's feeling that there's something more

Chorus:

Is there life out there

So much she hasn't done

Is there life beyond

Her family and her home

She's done what she should

Should she do what she dares

She doesn't want to leave

Shes just wonderin'

Is there life out there

She's always lived for tomorrow

She's never learned how

To live for today

She's dyin to try something foolish

Do something crazy

Or just get away

Something for herself for a change

Is there life out there

So much she hasn't done

Is there life beyond

Her family and her home

She's done what she should

Should she do what she dares

She doesn't want to leave

She's just wonderin'

Is there life out there

There's a place in the sun that shes never been

Where life is fair and time is a friend

Would she do it the same as she did back then

She looks out the window and wonders again

Is there life out there

So much she hasn't done

Is there life beyond

Her family and her home

She's done what she should

Should she do what she dares

She doesn't want to leave

She's just wonderinIs there life out there



You can watch the video here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m7Bd3y_Ip4Q

I really like this song because it gives you the balance of a woman caught between what she wants and what she do, especially for her family. For those who know me, you know what is exactly where my heart is. It was hard to leave my family.. but I had to. Not for them, but for me. They had to grow up and I had to prove I could live without them. Last night I was talking to my dad about my tour at Bournemouth University. He said something I thought was so strange... because he wouldn't have said this a year ago! He said, "well its a test to see if you can live without us!" Where was this man a month before I left? How about the day I left?? They (my family) have grown so much I know God's plan is working out (of course it is, but you know what I mean).



I still have to figure out why I am here, and I don't think I will! I know I had to leave for my family and some friends and most importantly me to grow. But is that it? I'm on a holiday here and its been nice... but there has to be more, right?? I mean phlegmatic Linda could have been brought 3,000 miles just sit back and relax! I can do that in heaven! LOL :) Yes, prophecies have come true: I have met people I will be friends for the rest of my life. Yes, my heart is for England, her culture and her people... but the other half of me? I wasn't aware I was missing a half of me! That is until I got here! I feel like I'm finally living here.. but that doesn't mean I've found the missing half of me! I don't want to do the day in and day out monotonous routine of going to school, work, study, school, work, study... its boring!! I refuse to live like that anymore! So I have NO clue what I'm going to do when I get back.. not a clue! I don't know where I want to go to graduate school, I don't know what I'm doing here.. and for once that is okay... phlegmatic Linda is seeking the peace and that is where it is headed! Liberation! :) (Go ahead, and smile! You know who you are!!)



Be praying I get better! I've had the flu this week :( and I have 2 essays due in 2 weeks but EVERY time I go to start them I get sick or I can't keep my eyes open! What is up with that? I want to get my work done now... so I can enjoy the last 3 weeks here with no hassles! I'm going to Paris tomorrow, so be praying for save travels and a great time! I also need some discernment on souvenirs... I'm horrible at Christmas shopping, and its even worse here! :)

Talk to you soon!!!

XOXO

Linda