Freedom

Last night at Night of Praise I realized something during worship...  I am free.

Granted as Christians we say this a lot,  we are free from the power of sin, free from death, free from the power of the flesh, but what does that really mean?  And do we even believe it?  I know I certainly hadn't until I finally came to this revelation last night.  

We were singing about how we are free.. free to run, free to dance..  and it just comes to me that I am free. 

I am free

I AM FREE

I really am free... free to be loved, free to be accepted, free to be me!

I am free from rejection, pain: both physical and emotional, doubt, self-pity, death, quietness, and obesity.

I am free from selfishness, from clumsiness, judgement, am most importantly fear!  I know that perfect love casts out fear and that God did not create fear but I finally (as I've already stated) I've come to the conclusion that I really am free!

I know I'm free in a physical sense, I am independent but I'm also independent spiritually as well! I don't know why I just figured this out but... at least I did!

I feel different knowing that I am free...  I've always felt not good enough in general and to be loved and I know it is a lie but I am free from that lie!  I am free to be loved.. because I am free from perfection.  I'm finally good enough to be loved (Well, when wasn't I really??)

I also realized today as I was driving home from Orlando (more about that later) that although I don't want to date because I enjoy my freedom that doesn't mean I can't be friends with guys.  I shouldn't shy away but make friends, there is no wrongdoing in this.

And lastly I am free from my shyness (Can I get an amen?  Anyone..?? :D) and I am free to be the person that I want to be and the person that God has called me to be!

Oh Lord You're Beautiful

Your Face Is All I Seek

And When Your Eyes Are On This Child

Your Grace Abounds To Me...

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Yesterday I came home from visiting my friend Lucy.  Her grandparents live in Venice, and her grandmother died last week so I went down to visit and be with her.  I left last Friday and came home yesterday.  It was nice to spend some time with her and do absolutely nothing... we just hung out, played skip-bo, watched Big Bang Theory (<3 that show!), and went swimming...  that is the life, or at least a nice vacation!

I'm a little sad to have to come back to the real world but I'm at least fully refreshed.  On the way down I was praying that God would bring us closer, and that He would give me rest because I was so tired.. and He did.  God is very faithful.  Of course, when isn't he?

On the way home I stopped by and a good friend from high school who now works for Disney.  It was a nice break from driving and to get out and be with others.  I was exhausted but it was enough to clear my head so I could finish the 5 hour drive completely.   

It really is amazing how much God takes care of us..  and I'm slowly but surely learning that lesson too...