I read to escape.. you already know the majority of my past and well when you come to that everyday you need something to get away! It also helps me during finals week. I usually read fantasy, something that will never happen.
I read because I don't or can't dream. When I hear sermons or others about their dreams and what they want to do or how about God dreams big dreams for us, I have no understanding of this. I have such a strong grip on reality that I can't imagine anything. When I want to do something I have to see the end before I do it. I don't care about the middle if I can see myself finishing it, then I'm game. My dad reminded me this yesterday when he interrupted me cleaning and reorganizing my closet for at least the 3rd time since the summer, lol! Take my chosen profession for instance. I enjoy counseling, I'm actually trained to work in churches and to work as a Christian Counselor. I am not however certified to be a licensed therapist but I am currently working towards that. I can see myself finished with my Masters, (I see myself at UNF, because right now that is the easiest to envision). I see myself in my own office, don't ask me what it looks like I can't see the room. I can see myself in professional clothing, with a smartphone, a planner, and a really big purse that doubles as my briefcase. I see myself spending hours with clients, laughing, crying, talking, praying with them. I see people who have been the depths of their addictions, depressions and hurt, walk away with new freedom in their spirit. I see it all.. it's easy. Now ask me what my wedding looks like and I can't even give you the colors. I was never that girl who could plan their wedding before hand, never have and never will :)
I read because you become the character, and let's face the main character rarely dies or is ever lonely or has family drama or whatever we (or I, more specifically) have to deal with. They get the guy, the get the dream dress, they can do spells, they can time travel, they can do whatever they have been created to do.. and they do. Rarely does a main character miss out on their calling.
The reason that I enjoy the twilight saga and more specifically New Moon the most is because, the main character, Bella, believes that there is nothing to her. She's a plain Jane, nothing to her and she believes this. Then prince charming comes in, Edward, tells her how much she is the center of his world and she can't believe it. Why? Because she believes the lie that there is nothing to her. This is proven in New Moon. Her prince charming that tries to dispell her believe that she is a nobody proves to her that she is. He tells her he doesn't want her and that she doesn't fit in his world. Something she already knew. Something that I personally identify with. When he returns to her (after her saving him.. excuse me but the girl does not save the guy.. sorry this doesn't fly for me! lol) and he tries to dispell the beliefs that she is so convinced of. If you remember the ending she has this epiphany, she finally understands that Edward does love her and he left her because he loved her not because he didn't.
Now... if this could happen to me. Ok, let's be realistic it's not going to happen. I have been told I could be recasted as modern day Cinderella but this Cinderella doesn't see a prince in her future anytime soon.
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