New Year!

Wow! I can't believe it's 2010 already. I've been looking forward and dreading this for quite some time, lol!

I never finished my week of blogging but at least I tried! I don't know how I'll manage throughout the year but I know that I can do it one step at a time and frankly one step is not daily!!

To be honest, I really dislike the new year. Not only is it my birthday (and I don't like my birthday either..) but because I feel like this is the only time people make goals or start anew (myself included). I'm not much a new years resolution person, personally I feel like I'm making this bold statement of what I'm going to do on my birthday and that's a bit weird (try it sometime! lol). Plus I feel like if we are really going to change we have to make resolutions throughout the year not just the first day! With that being said I propose my goals for the year

I will...

• Step out in faith and speak the Word to myself daily that God is going to heal me physically, spiritually, and emotionally!
• Work on my spiritual issues (Read previous posts!)
• Speak scripture into my life. I have actually forgotten how powerful speaking the word is out loud and over myself. Am I foolish, or what??
• Health issues... lots of stuff going on or will be going on. This goes with the first one!
• Find a church home. I actually started this today. Went to a new church, not really my new home but got a good word on why God wants us to remember the bad times and why He wants us to be humble!

I am not saying that I will pray more or read my bible more or go to the gym more or this or that more! I will however be looking for opportunities to be filled more. I realized today as I was listening to a Joyce Meyers podcast that I am empty. And when I'm empty, I'm discouraged and when I'm discouraged, I'm depressed and when I'm depressed, I'm tired and angry and I give up. Problem solved: be filled! I will be looking for more opportunities to give and to bless. I will be looking towards the future and praying that what I feel in my spirit is actually the truth!

I feel like so much has passed since I last wrote, and it did! Today is the 3rd and I haven't written since the 28th. A whole 6 days have passed! As I just wrote this I was reminded of how I forgot my supposed to be wedding anniversary. I actually remembered it the other day, after it had passed, but writing its date reminded me again. Wow! Tells you how much I care about that part of my past, lol!

I really don't feel like writing about my birthday. I will give you a synopsis: no gift, no cake, and lots of drama. There you go my birthday in a nutshell, like every year, sadly. To be honest I have no clue why I'm writing. Probably because I feel like I need to, like someone out there is waiting for me.. or because I'm attached to it already!

So I'm signing off, I'm actually starting Lies Women Believe and the Truth That Sets Them Free

and hopefully I'll be writing about it later. I pray I can keep this up!!! :)